missbananza

Havent written in a while, havent really been on this site much :/ but i am back now. Feeling really poorly tho, kidney and urine infection :( So on anti-biotics. So hopefully that will make me feel better. Lifes been pretty stresseful as of late, moving into my new flat, living with my sister, its a beautiful place :) will feel weird sleeping in another room, one im not used to :/ lol but i'll get used to it tho :) Nothing more to report, been on the online dating sites, no such luck yet :( im starting to give up tbh. Oh well nothing more to write, i have hit a wall, cant seem to be creative right now, hope it doesnt last long! Hope everyone

Sooo yea "TicK ToK" whats what i feel like my life is like at the moment, i am forever seeing minutes slip away from me, minutes, hours, days, weeks and even months, i feel like i am forever drowning, going back to that place i used to be in, i dont want to go back, but i cant seem to keep my head above the shit that seems to be floating by. Self harmed for the first time in months :( gutted. Hate myself for it, but cant seem to cope right now. Practically homeless soon, my gran has decided to sell her house, my home. I knew that she wanted to but the way she was talking she made out like it was going to be end of year, maybe next, but nope..

So been feeling bitty up and down lately, mostly down right now, not sure why. Fell down my stairs couple of days ago, and in agony, went to GP who then sent me to A&E...bah :( turns out i have a suspected broken bone and very bad brusing of my muscles... :D yay..: buh :( So strong painkillers and bed rest for me, put a few newbie pics nothing exciting or decent, just my usual stuff. Not long to Christmas, i am both filled with excitement and dread, so much to do, and im exhausted, i have an other half and trying to spend time at home, theirs, my mums, work and my own time.... tis not working. Just want to crawl into a little ball like a lit